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xnera
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[UPDATE] Quirky Acuity - Not One - Aug 3
Violet wrote:
Not one
Category: me
Time: 08:51 PM
Today was rough. Beyond rough. Today was so rough I ended up having a long heart-to-heart about feelings with Scarlett.
I think Anna's death has brought up a lot of stuff for both of us. Because we lost our mum when we were so young, just like Anna's children. Because we know what it's like to look at your dad as a child and, even though you love him and even though you trust him, you know he's never going to be your mum. And you know that there's a way your dad is never quite going to understand you, because your mum won't be there to explain. Or, I don't know. That's how it was for me. Maybe Fleming's a bit more accessible than my father.
I spent part of the day with Caine - I don't think I've ever seen him this visibly upset. Before this, the high-water mark of emotion was when one of his bandmates called to say that he'd put his heel through one of Caine's drums when practising a particularly energetic guitar solo. He always has this cool nothing-ever-bothers-me veneer, but not today. When one of the twins (Caine can tell them apart, but I can't) asked where the peanut butter was "because mummy always puts it away", I thought he might actually shed a tear. Or, well, no, of course it was just dust in his eye.
We had family dinner tonight; I think dad wanted to see us even more than usual. He asked me if I'd like to bring Kurt and for once I didn't pout and make a face and explain that duh, we're not dating. Because Kurt's had it pretty rough these past few months too, and if he wanted to talk - which he doesn't often - it's not clear to me he'd have anyone to talk to. Sometimes it seems to me that Anna was the glue that held us all together, and now she's gone we're spinning apart faster than I can pull us back in.
Kurt and I went for a walk this evening in the park. I linked my arm through his as we walked, because it felt right and friendly and it's not that my life is overly complicated, no not at all.
After a while, he said: "Do you feel guilty?"
I shook my head, which was a big lie because I do but I couldn't say it just then.
He nodded, as if that was the right thing to say.
After a little while longer, he said: "I don't feel guilty about Miranda. I never have."
I wondered if that was the first time I'd heard him say her name since the week she died.
"But," he said, "we can't lose any more people. Not a single one."
I nodded and repeated his words.
"Not a single one."
"Is that a deal?" he said. "Whatever happens, we won't waste a single other person?"
And there, in the park, we shook on it. I'm not really sure what it means, but it felt important. Even if Kurt and I have to do everything it takes to solve this, we can't risk any of our friends' lives anymore.
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Posted: Thu Aug 03, 2006 8:28 pm
Tintintin
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Re: [UPDATE] Quirky Acuity - Not One - Aug 3
Violet wrote:
"But," he said, "we can't lose any more people. Not a single one."
I nodded and repeated his words.
"Not a single one."
Kurt, you FOOL! You should know that saying things like that only gets people killed in enormously poignant circumstances!
Posted: Thu Aug 03, 2006 8:43 pm
Rand0m
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True! But the only way they can top killing off Anna would be to kill off one of us.
Edit: stuff removed
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Posted: Thu Aug 03, 2006 8:53 pm
Last edited by Rand0m on Fri Aug 04, 2006 8:29 am; edited 1 time in total
Macavity
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Rand0m wrote:
True! But the only way they can top killing off Anna would be to kill off one of us.
Anyone spoken to Duckiemonster this evening?
No . . . you don't think she's been deaded, do you?
<Bluebottle> I don't want Duckie to be deaded!</Bluebottle>
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Posted: Thu Aug 03, 2006 9:17 pm
Dranioth
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Pretty soon they'll be wandering into dark hallways alone and saying things like "I'll be right back!"
Posted: Thu Aug 03, 2006 9:23 pm
Muffin
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Quote:
"Whatever happens, we won't waste a single other person?"
What a very strange way to put it. Surely he meant lose, not waste. I agree with the sentiment, but still...
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Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 4:24 am
thalamus
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Muffin wrote:
Quote:
"Whatever happens, we won't waste a single other person?"
What a very strange way to put it. Surely he meant lose, not waste. I agree with the sentiment, but still...
is it an admonishment ? should we have been more careful ? could we have been more careful ?
[tiag] or maybe mindcandy feel bad about how bad they've made us all feel, souring the wave4 release with thoughts of doe-eyed orphans, and they're not killing anyone else this season [/tiag]
Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 4:56 am
duckie|keynes
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Rand0m wrote:
True! But the only way they can top killing off Anna would be to kill off one of us.
Anyone spoken to Duckiemonster this evening?
I'm not deaded, just very busy.
Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 7:50 am
myf
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How do we know you're really Duckie? You could be anyone, trying to put us off the trail!
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Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 8:04 am
spugmeistress
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Re: [UPDATE] Quirky Acuity - Not One - Aug 3
Violet wrote:
Kurt and I went for a walk this evening in the park. I linked my arm through his as we walked, because it felt right and friendly and it's not that my life is overly complicated, no not at all.
violet lurves kurt ;)
nothing like a good old tragedy to bring starcrossed lovers together :)
rach =)
Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 9:03 am
Rand0m
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Henceforth to be renamed Kurtnviolet - their great and t00by love shall be denied no longer.
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Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 9:11 am
Tintintin
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'Violurt'...?
Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 10:14 am
Muffin
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'Vurt'...?
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Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 11:05 am
ArcySparky
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Hehe...
Like the hallucinagenic feathers!
Man, I loved that book.
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Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 12:49 pm
Macavity
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Rand0m wrote:
Henceforth to be renamed Kurtnviolet - their great and t00by love shall be denied no longer.
Kinda like Richandamy, yeah?
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Posted: Fri Aug 04, 2006 12:52 pm
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